Dear ah gong,

I hope you have been well up there..or according to the taoist beliefs, down there. Did you know i went to ask a primary school friend about taoist beliefs? i still don't understand much of it though..

Thanks for the dream last monday night even though i don't know if it was just a dream or if you really came to visit. Were you trying to tell me something, was it a reminder that papa's death anniversary is nearing or was it just a dream from my own brain?

It's so hard to tell if the dreams i've had after your funeral are just me missing you guys too much or if you really came to visit. At least i know the 2 dreams during the wake were real :)

I'm thankful that er gu jie recorded short footages of you cause when i miss you, i'll just watch the footage of you being happy that i was there to visit you. Too bad mummy accidentally taped over the video recordings of papa cause i miss him too and i think i've forgotten his voice. I was REALLY, REALLY, mad at mummy for doing that even though it wasn't on purpose. She's awful with tech stuff. I'm also glad that you have gotten the chance to meet Bas and approved of him :)

This coming Friday the 27th of April will be papa's death anniversary. I can't believe it has already been 15 years. People say time heals all wounds but it seems that this wound hasn't been able to heal much. I can still remember the day as if it were yesterday.

I miss the both of you so much. Take care and till we meet again.

Love and kisses,
Mun Mun


Wow 3rd post in a month..i'm surprised at myself haha.
Actually i'm supposed to be studying for mid terms now but ohwell..procrastinating away as always.

Last Saturday, i arranged a surprise party for the bf. All he wanted was to go out and have dinner with friends but i added a little more to that. Arranging a surprise party is HARD. geez....and the stress it brought me..omg, but everything was worth it in the end :) Tricking and lying to the bf was the hardest thing to do as he's smart. It's hard for him not to suspect anything.

So our friends came over to our apartment to play basketball and swim. Natalia and i went to meet Natalia's friend cause the bf's present was with her. Jazz festival tickets! After that we went to the mall to pick up cupcakes and get the bf's name stitched to a basketball shirt. With an excuse, we got the guys to leave to the dinner venue first while we decorated the apartment.




We made all the garlands ourselves as we could not find any shops selling them!!





Running late, we hurried to Kenny Rogers, the food and service was GREAT. After a well planned "let's go to UNO-cafe after dinner" we went there to "listen to live music". As the clock struck 12, the bf was called upon the stage and they sang happy birthday to him in Bahasa Indonesia. I was called upon the stage too =_= and was made to give him the cupcakes we ordered. At around 1 am we went home and got friends to stall for time. The decorated apartment was the other surprise!! After that, we just chilled.

I'm glad the bf had a happy birthday and the friends were there for me while planning the whole thing, even stressing together with me and stuff :) Satu Cintaaaa

Oh and did i mention i reaaaalllyyy realllllyyy miss cooking and baking?! :(




At Kenny Rogers



with Welly


Asian pose!! hahahahaha


waiter's idea


Lovee
















Surprise, surprise!




Ciaooooo
Hola, today has been a long but fun day. Had class from 8:00-12:00 this morning and then had to do ALOT, and by that i mean REALLY IRRITATING MAFAAN ALOT of admin stuff. People here work sooooo ineffectively omg. Seriously they enjoy seeing us run from building to building....as if the campus is not huge.

After doing all those shit, we went to the mall to have lunch. I had Pempek and Otak-otak. I looooovveee the otak-otak here! it is different from Singapore. The rest time zoned, for a little while ( I was too feeling too full to play..hehehe) and yeah we still play at arcades lol. After that, we went to Serpong for bowling and then somewhere near our condo for dinner and then cards at our place. damn tired today but that's good cause my mind is distracted. I haven't been able to sleep that well these past few days because i think too much and maybe i nap too much too.. hihihi

Anywayssss, i finally had a chance to Skype properly with my mum and sis yesterday. Told them about all the dramamama and family secrets from the funeral and stuff. My mum looked nice and slim in the jacket that my sis bought for her bday, but most of all, she looked happy apart from when i told her the stuff. i'll give her a belated b'day present cause i know what i wanna buy but have not found it yet. Actually, why am i explaining myself here?! silly.

I was reading my cousin's blog and discovered that we both now have this same attitude towards people and life and stuff in general since my grandpa passed away. We both have the "don't care" attitude. Seriously, i don't give a shit and i will not put up with any shit either. Why should i put myself through shit and make my own life miserable? Life is short peopleeeee, so treasure your own, have fun and be a little selfish sometimes cause it doesn't always pay to be good.

I was thinking about this the whole time and finally had the time to digest what some family members said to me the other day. Honestly, i don't care about the family feuds that happened when i was little. I don't know what happened and there are always 2 sides of a story. Asking me not to call my aunt, aunt just because they are divorced, doesn't that make you guys kinda childish? If you really don't care about her, then why bother about what i have to call her when i see her? I've called her so my whole life, even after the divorce and nobody said anything.

What about my innocent cousins who happen to be the few of whom i'm closest with? They have to see their mother being treated that way, for so many years. Think about how they feel. You guys told me that i was part of the LEE family. Well, tell you what, they are too. So why are they being treated as complete outsiders? Because of this older generation, this younger generation is suffering. Cousins that don't even know each others names.. how stupid is that? And why? because you guys had/have fights and forbade each others children to have contact and stuff. Geez... why the hate?

Oh yeah, and telling me to open my eyes to see cause i'm old enough to judge myself, but indirectly telling me whose side to choose. Who are you to judge and who are you to say that she is evil? What do you know of her after all these years of minimum contact? Well, my eyes are wide open and i see who treats me well and who does not. FYI, nobody does not, not treat me well. I see my aunt, yeah my SAMSAM and cousins rushing down to the airport with public transport to see me off, even though it is for a mere 10minutes and even though i would be in sg for a half year in June and will have plenty of time to meet up then. I see my aunt trying to get to know my bf and trying to make him feel comfortable, I see my aunt turn up everyday for grandpa's wake to stay overnight, even though people are avoiding her. This aunt, is the aunt that calls me to tell me she loves me and misses me AND my bf.

I am not typing any of this to defend her. I am just saying that i am close to her, i always have been and i will not distance myself from her without having any reason to do so. Both parties are at fault cause it takes 2 hands to clap. As i said, There are always 2 sides to a story and this story happens to have motherlots of sides. Those who are not involved should not be a busybody and get involved. I am neutral and will not choose sides cause i wasn't there. If someone is nice to me, i will be nice back. Ganging up to bully and talk bad about 1 person, is mean. Don't say its not bullying cause deep down you know it is. Think about what you said about her to me the other day.

Actually, i was super sad that everything turned out the way it did. You know what? All of you should really reflect on the things that happened recently, or maybe years back. I truly think that because of all these stupid things, that ah gong could not go in peace and I'm really sad about that. He should not have been worrying about ANYTHING, given his age. My heart truly aches for him. Anyway, the one that held the family together has passed on so i don't really care about anything else anymore. I don't care if one of the adults read this post, i don't care if you judge me and i don't care about hanging out the dirty laundry for all to read. If you have done nothing wrong there is nothing to be afraid about isn't it? Why care about waggling tongues?

The best thing would be gathering everyone together and dish out the stuff you are not satisfied with or want clarification of but i guess thats impossssiiibiirruu as you guys are not mature enough to sit and talk like adults but have to scream and accuse each other which would probably result to someone fainting or getting hospitalized lol. One last thing, the younger generation is now more mature than you guys are and even the young ones know how to let bygones be bygones, live and let live. Shame on you.


Ugh this turned out to be a longer post than i expected -__- Anyway, i am thankful for the non negative people i have around me and for the friends i have made that are closer to me, more than my own family. Plus i am thankful of my mum and sis for being around, accepting me for the way i am and last but not least, my bf, for making me a better person. HAHAHAHAHA omg, this sounds like a thank you speech for accepting awards! Oh, and thank you brain, for making me see the funny things in life no matter how serious something is. Goodnight!





I think of blogging everytime i am showering or in the toilet or something. It’s almost my third month here in Indonesia and I’ve settled quite fine. I know right.. time flies! School here is..uhm..early. I’ve got classes that start at 7:15AM. CRAAAAZZZYYYYY! Wednesdays are the worst.. class from 8:10- 17:00.

During these 2 months, I’ve been to Singapore for 3 times and all 3 were to visit my sick grandfather. Happy that I have seen him with CNY and happy that he has met bubs and that bubs is ‘approved’ by him :D The last time I was there, was a week ago, when he passed away.

Actually, today is the day he passed away exactly 2 weeks ago. Some freaky things occurred during the wake though… like my youngest uncle getting possessed by my grandfather, as he was worried about some stuff. My aunt filmed it and really, seeing is believing man. I’m happy that I was the first one my grandfather looked for in dreams.

I dreamt of him the first night and the night he went into my uncle’s body and all the dreams were specific messages. With two of my favourite men in the world gone, the only one left is bubs.

OHHHHHH and apparently, if you've been a good and helpful person the colour of your bones will have patches of pink and green on it!! MY grandfathers bones were beauuuutiful pink and green!

Ohwell, enough of this.

OHHH today is my mum’s bday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!! Even though I know you don’t read my blog. Hell, even I don't read my blog anymore cause it’s kinda dead haha.

The weather is great! While people in Holland were freezing away with temperatures like -20 degrees, it was hot and sunny here and at least 30 degrees everyday! Wow, that's like 50 degrees difference!

Ohhhh by the way, internet and phone connection at the apartment where I live sucks big time! Internet was fine until the weather got stormy and internet got disconnected. It’s not working properly since a week ago. Gonna buy a new router today and hope it solves the problem! I live on the 25th storey and phone connection is sooooo bad that we can’t even call MacD to order food lol.
Oh and I’ve made some local friends too and that's nice ☺ Funny that literally EVERYBODY uses a Blackberry here. Shopping is not that good here and I’d rather save up all my money and shop in SG. Food here is quite good though! Ok, so this was indo in a nutshell. This post is long enough! Byebye!

I'll be flying off in a few hours time!! YAAYYYY
The day to leave Holland has finally come hehehe
Bas and i will be going to Singapore first before flying off to Jakarta on the 24th.
We'll be in sg to visit my grandfather and the rest of the family.

These past months have been really hectic. Moving, finishing everything for school and lots and lots of paperwork!
I would probably have to do this all over again if i ever plan to move to Asia for good. Ughhhh it's a nightmare!
Told bubs that he's gonna have to hire someone in to do the paperwork cause i ain't doing thaaaat again!

Yesterday, bubs' sister Chantal organised a surprise party for us. Family and friends came over to say goodbye and we got lots of little gifts to remember everyone by. Yesterday was really awesome and we both feel really loved :) Chan, if you are reading this, thanks for all the effort, we really appreciate it! Pics will be up another time, i don't have them yet.

For the Dutch people, I've made another blog kinda thing. The link is www.mellee.waarbenjij.nu

Ok that's it. Off to Singapore!!

-ourfirstadventuretogether
With 5 more weeks to go, time is catching up! My exam week ended last Friday.
I hope that bf and i passed everything so that we are able to stay longer in Asia!
I was making a list just now, of the things i should pack.
OMG i have to think of sooooo many things!
It will be really FML if i forget something cause its not like 'oh, never mind, i'll be back in a month' NO..its a YEARRRR!
My knowledge about myself tells me i am bound to forget something. =_=


The time has also almost come to bid farewell to our lil appartement. Just 1 more month..
I've had a really nice time living there :)
Speaking of which.. time to pack up those things too!
oh damn here we go again...
This year, i've moved house 4 times and i'm getting quite sick of it.



The weather forecast of this upcoming winter is quite bad. Some said that it would be -23 degrees.
But, people could be wrong cause they said that we were gonna have a 'hot' summer too.
Oh did it? i didn't notice a thangggggg.
Boy oh boy am i glad to be out of this godforsaken country soon hehehehehe


This morning i woke up at 7am to Skype with my grandpa and family in Singapore.
He's in hospital, poor thing.
Got me worried sick but luckily he's ok.
Even though he didn't say much, it was nice chatting to him ^^




Ohhhh totally random before i forget.


Conversation with bf this morning.
Me: why did you on the tv when you are not even watching it and turned it to mute?
He: i turned it on for you! Avatar weekend!
Me: How am i gonna watch/listen with the sound off?
He: you want sound?
Me: no.
He: YOU WOMEN ARE SO CONFUSING!!!!! *jackiechan.jpg


Thats it for now, i'm too lazy to upload pics! There needs to be an easier wayyyyyy!




My life has been pretty boring lately.
School most of the time and i haven't been skipping alot of classes.
Super proud of myself! Actually the main reason is that i hope to leave holland ASAP!

Luckily last year went well and I'm allowed to go to Indo. Will get confirmation from school on October first and i will book my ticket in a few days!
I still have tons of stuff to do though.. visa, vaccines..and stuff.
Like the Dutch say " This joke is gonna be expensive".
Vaccines are freaking 150eu or something! For 1 damn injection! I guess i have to take malaria pills too cause mosquitos just love me.

On Saturday morning, i woke up with bf next to me and i was like I'M GONNA GO PACK MY LUGGAGE.
He was still sleepy and was like huh? where are you going to?
I said i was going to Indonesia and he was like but we're going in December!
Me: LET'S GO NOWWWWWWWW
He: =__= *turns around and ignores me*

That's how much i wanna go. :(

So yesterday bf was telling me how i have a natural wrestling talent (might have something to do with the fact that i used to watch WWF with my sister and cousin :p) and he taught me how to chokehold someone.
Bad move, cause he couldn't get out of my chokehold hahaha and he was like 'OHNOOO I'VE CREATED A MONSTERRRR' 'LEMME GOOOOO'

After i let him go he was like so thats what you gotta do when some idiot wants to attack you ok? I was like why would i be lying on the floor with the one that wants to attack me?! Bf said Just kick him in the balls and strike his neck so that he'll go knock out! After that, sit on top of him and pull his neck to the back just for the heck of it and maybe you could let a fart in his face and pee all over him too.


He has a creative imagination.


Ok thats it for now.

I WANNA GO ASIAAAAAAAAAAA

and just like that, everything fell into place.

The previous post has been so depressing! Time to update and bf has been nagging at me to update for like ages!
I have been really busy these past months! (NO,REALLY.)


I had 8 weeks of internship at AC Ryan Europe B.V. , a company that sells media players.
After the 8 weeks of internship i was offered a summer job there.
I've got 1 more week to go, last day of work is next Friday and after that it's back to school!
Sad to say that the money i've earned vanished instantly into thin air hahaha.
Not because of my spending, but because of college fees and plane ticket to sg/indo!
College fees are up by a 100 euros! DAMNIT. *wails*





As for looking for a place to stay, i'm happy to announce that the bf and i are living together now and we've found a nice lil place to stay!



The living room! Pic taken ages ago and I'm too lazy to take a new one ghehe



I've got a walk-in closet too! #everywomansdream
PLUS i got a new shoe rack cause my old one good enough for 30pairs was not big enough hihi.
I really love this place and it's a shame that we gotta move out in December because we're going to Asia for a year!



On the other hand, i CANT WAIT to go!! School in Indo for 4 months and 4 months internship in sg!
The remaining 4 months or so are for traveling around :D
CANTWAITCANTWAITTTTT
I hope to go to taiwan, korea, japan, thailand and other neighboring countries!
thats why I'm working my ass off now.



And this is how the post abruptly ends cause I'm gonna back cookies! OMNOMNOM








Havent been blogging even though i think about it often.
I've been so busy lately. I'm currently in my 8th or 9th week of internship.. so i've been working from 0900-1730 4 days a week.
Mondays are for school..i hardly go though.

So here is a funny story.
I live in a 2 storey appartement with 6 others.
I moved to a bigger room 3 weeks ago, and my friend moved to my 'old' room as his parents have gone to Germany..
2 weeks ago, my landlord decided to finally tell us that he fucking sold the appartement and that we had till the end of the month to move out. oh yeah BTW, he was negotiating with the buyer about a month and a half ago.



WTF SERIOUSLY.



i really cant believe there people like him exist.
He didn't even have the decency to tell us he was CONSIDERING or PLANNING to sell the house and freaking still let my friend and i move. FOR 1 TEENY MONTH so that he could still earn the 1 month rent from us.

I just moved, i finally had a place i felt comfortable in..and now this happens. GREAT.



I feel like i'm back to square 1.
All these months of living on a budget..All these months of worrying about money..all these months gone by without shopping for a single thing..all these months without eating out. buying new carpet for my new room..buying a new bed/sofa so vi could come and sleep over..ALL FOR NOTHING.
In the end i still have to move. I thought i had a nice place to live in until i was going to Indonesia and Singapore..but no.



I'm so tired. when will it stop?
I've been working so hard to be independent and happy and in a wink of an eye, everything is gone.


Because of 1 selfish bastard who decided to sell the appartement, 7 people have become homeless. And he?
Well he just 'pai pai pi gu' and leaves without a care in the world.


Funny huh.
Helloooo!

Can't believe how i tell myself to blog more often and end up leaving my blog to rot for a few weeks or months -__-"
Procrastinating like shit but it's ok, in the next issue of Quest there will be an article about Procrastinating and how it can be 'cured'.

How do i know?





cause i can predict the future muahahaha xD




Soo,,,, i thought i should blog so that the super-negative-most-recent-post will be moved 'down'.
Subject? Why my bf is better than yours hihi ^^
no really, i'm serious.
Not sure if he'll agree to me posting all this shit what i'm about to post, but ohwell, i guess i'll deal with it later xD



I was sick a few days ago and i was throwing up and having a fever while bf was playing bball.
When he came to know that i was sick,he drove over to my place and spent the night taking care of me and stuff.
His mom texted me and told me to go over their place so that she could look after me as she had 2 days off.
SWEET RIGHT?! I KNOWWWW!
So the next day, i thought i was fine, so i went to school. NOTTTT!
OMG, worse feeling ever. Luckily i only had like 2 hours of class, so bf and i went back to his place.
I got into my PJ's and fell asleep like immediately after that.

Suddenly, i woke up to the sound of bf walking up the stairs and he was like all big smile with a bag in his hand.
Turns out, he secretly went back to my place to get some of my stuff, including my *ahem*stuffedtoy*ahem*
so that 'i could sleep better'!! i was so touched can. =)


Ohhh and i have this saying (well not mine, Garfield's) that i always tell him

' love me, feed me and never leave me'

i always emphasize the 'feed me' part hahahahahaha.
We were napping 1 day, and i heard him mumbling 'hold you, love you, -pauze- never leave you'
confronted him when he woke up, but he didn't remember saying anything like that.

Ohh and we're both so lame that we failed each others 'test'. HAHAHAHA
That's why we're perfect for each other *wink*


Besides being so nice to me, always giving in, and loving me, he also ALWAYS stands by me =)
Everytime when i'm feeling low, he never fails to cheer me up. Kudos to him for being forever positive.
Damnnn, which reminds me, i need to start reading ' The Secret' again!!!


I hope that wasn't too mushy. Positive stuff needs to be blogged too!!




AND also,

About a week ago, lil Dean puked all over himself and didn't have any clean clothes so his mum had wrapped him in a T-shirt of hers. When we came back, i was like why didn't you look in our closet for my clothes? She was like ' i did, cause you're the littlest of our family but i couldn't find anything!'


It meant a lot to me that she considers me as family. She's such a sweety. She even specially bought 'Maria Cookies' ( hokkien= money pia) for me when i was sick cause she knew i wouldn't have any appetite. (i was throwing up everything BLEHHHH)



Sweetypie but also stinkypoo Dean!
He always smiles at bf and i, cause we're AWESOME LIKE THAT.AHUH.





his dad is such a sweety also!

I was leaving for my own place the other day and kissed his dad goodbye.
He was like ' ohh you going home??'
me: 'yeahhh, see ya Friday!'
he: Whyy are you leaving? cant you stay?
me: well, i need to be at my own place too or else i'll be paying rent for nothing!
he: ' why don't you just move out and come move in with us here?!' 'isn't that a good idea?'

*Yelled at his wife and Bf* HEYYY THATS A GOOD IDEA ISN'T IT?!


not to mention his grandma who let us stay at her place for some time...
She cried in Dec when i told her i was going back to Oosterhout for the Christmas holidays..Awwwwww
Last weekend, bf and i went out with grandma to have lunch and do some groceries.
She's always like forcing us to buy junkfood and stuff! Ever met someone who will get mad and yell at you if you don't buy junkfood? :p


So the conclusion of this post is that i feel blessed to have such a nice and sweet bf and family. More love needs to go around the world!! Spread the love people!

Totally irrelevant long-overdue-photos!!

New Year @ Peter's a.k.a. bf2 place! We all managed to stay sober! WAAUUWWW!


Pics taken @ Winnie's place, Lisa's bday




Cool huh. artsy fartsy. SATC/GG -like :p


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And just to gross everyone out....



HIHIHIHI


ok, bye!










- myeverything